= = my big sister and her hubby are expecting a baby. senior project is finally over. i picked a rockin' awesome topic. i can't decide where to go to college. = =
= = if the world could remain within a frame, like a painting on a wall, i think we would see the beauty. we would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges. = = nothing is as simple as we hope it will be. -- Jim Horning. = = there is no such thing as the word "loved". love has no past tense. if you ever stop loving someone, then you never truly loved them in the first place. = = there comes a point when you just love someone. not because they're good or bad or anything really. you just love them. it doesn't mean you'll be together forever. it doesn't mean you won't hurt eachother. it just means you love them. sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. and you know they love you. sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it. = = each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. that is why you cannot love two people the same. it simply is not possible. you love each person differently because of who they are, and the uniqueness they draw out of you. -- William P. Young. = = it's a basic truth of the human condition that everybody lies. the only variable is about what. = = everybody does stupid things. it shouldn't cost them everything they want in life. = = when a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. somebody should notice. somebody should be upset. = = but i'm still here and you're still here. and if you're reading this, it means you never gave up. because you're stronger than they think you are. because you're stronger than you think you are. = = hope is the most exciting thing in life. if you honestly believe that love is out there, it will come. and even if it doesn't come straight away, there is still that chance all through your life that it will. -- Josh Hartnett. = = never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite, and never outstay the welcome. just keep your mind open and suck in the experience. and if it hurts, you know what ? it's probably worth it. = = sometimes, we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons. and still love them even after all the hurt, because well, sometimes, and most times, we can't pick who we love. and even though we know we shouldn't love them, we do, and always will. because there are just a small number of people in this world, who will get us for reasons we can't explain, even when they shouldn't, and even when time has elapsed since we last talked. -- Arminda Meer. = = if people are truly, madly, deeply in love with eachother, they will find a way. -- Dawson's Creek. = = there are certain things in life that are better left unknown. things you wish you never asked, never heard, and sometimes never felt. = = when you run from something it only stays with you longer. if you fight something, it only makes you stronger. = = focus on the journey, not the destination. joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it. -- Greg Anderson. = = do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as you can. -- John Wesley = = if you have much, give your wealth ; if you have little, give your heart. -- Arab Proverb. = = i never thought i'd hear myself saying this, but thank you. because if you hadn't come along, i would never have learned that my worst day could also have been my best. because when a heart breaks, it also opens ; and once a heart opens, any number of things can happen, and some of them can be wonderful. = = there are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept. things we don't want to know, but have to learn. and people we can't live without, but have to let go. = = the beautiful thing about memories is that they are yours. whether they're good, bad, or indifferent, they belong to you. no matter where life takes you, your memories tie you to where you've been, and where you are now. = = after you say your final goodbye, an ending is just an ending. you don't always get the closure you want. sometimes you wish you could've sat and cried a little bit longer. you wish that you had savored the last moment that you clung to something that once meant so much. people let you down, and sometimes you don't get sent off the way you wanted to. you realize that leaving something that was never perfect will never be perfect, either. nothing is ever perfect, but there is no word more absolute than goodbye. = = you know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore ? all of a sudden, even though you have somewhere to put all your stuff, the idea of home is gone. you'll see one day when you move out, it just sort of happens one day, and it's gone. you feel like you can never get it back. it's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't exist. maybe it's like this right of passage. and you won't ever have this feeling again until create a new idea of home for yourself. for your kids, for the family you start. it's like a cycle or something. i don't know, but i miss the idea of it. maybe that's all family really is. a group of people that miss the same imaginary place. = = you can try your hardest. you can do everything and say everything. but sometimes people just aren't worth the effort anymore. they aren't worth worrying about. it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down. = = human kind cannot bear much reality. we keep hoping for the best, and we keep being disappointed. but every now and then, we stumble on something or someone, and hope seems entirely reasonable all over again. = = i guess, to some extent, you get used to being alone. you get used to not expecting phone calls and having nothing to do at night. you don't expect to turn around to open arms any longer. the small sounds of him have been replaced by silence. your thoughts echo through your head, with no one there to share them with. all in all, being alone isn't terrible. it just hurts like hell. = = because sometimes, there is no easy way out. you just have to grin and bear it. sometimes, the only escape route is to go straight through the flames. so just brace yourself and bite your lip. sometimes, you have to sever the ties clean off. because in every relationship, there comes a point when the damage is too much. and no matter how good it once was, the memories can no longer sustain you. you have to save yourself, knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. because you can't keep giving someone everything if you're getting nothing in return. = = i don't have a fear of commitment. i have a fear of abandonment. we all screw things up. i screw things up. especially with the people i love. i get needy, i get moody, i get distant, i want to be too close. i get confused, i don't understand all of it. but i keep pushing, because i hope in this thing, the universe. there's no way i'm the only bad person out there who wants something this bad. if i want it, someone else out there must too. = = there are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. i wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it. but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. and maybe that makes them crazy. but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. someone who never lets go. someone who cherishes you forever. = = i don't want to disappear. i want to stay with you forever. i want to remember your smell, your laugh, your voice ; everything. it's so hard to think that one day this will all be gone. it feels like we just got here. = = i miss you even more than i could have believed. and i was prepared to miss you a great deal. so this is really just a sequel of pain. it is incredible how essential to me you have become. = = i guess by now, i should know enough about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone, you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence. = = we all want to be loved, to be happy. so why aren't we ? because we've beecome experts at sabotaging our own happiness. feeling like victims, when in fact it's the choices we make. the bad habits, the vices, the inability to show love and compassion. these are the things that tear us down. we're not victims. when it comes to love and happiness, we're assassins. = = i knew that there were no guarantees. no way of knowing what came next for me, for him, or for anybody. some things don't last forever, but some things do. like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there. = = it's not that easy to distinguish the good guys from the bad. sinners can surprise you. and the same is true for saints. why do we try to define people as simply good or evil ? no one wants to admit that compassion and cruelty can live side by side in one heart. no one wants to admit that anyone is capable of anything. = = sometimes you love, and you learn, and you move on. and that's okay. = = when there has been so much love and happiness for someone, it is natural to be reluctant to close such a wonderful chapter in our lives, for moving forward is rarely accomplished without considerable grief and sadness. and while our own sorrow may be profound, the clouds will clear, and the sun will shine on us again. and in that warm, bright light, we will find ourselves facing a glorious future. a future of exciting challenges and infinite possibilities, in which the horizon will stretch out before us, trimmed in the heavenly glow of the sunrise of our tomorrow. = = the world is bursting at the seems with people ready to tell you that you're not good enough. on occasion, some may be correct. but do not do their work for them. seek any jobs ; ask anyone out ; pursue any goal. do not take it personally when they say no, for they may not be smart enough to say yes. = = the reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be. = = sometimes, the most ordinary things can be made extraordinary simply by doing them with the right people. = = things don't get lost if they don't have value. you don't miss what you don't care about. = = i love the feeling after a good run. or the feeling when my favorite song is on full blast in the car, driving through the country air. i like when my mom makes my favorite meal. i like traveling to nowhere, getting lost, and then the best part, being found. i like being held by someone who means a lot to me, especially when i haven't seen them in a while. we always complain that there isn't enough time. or that these moments never come around enough. it's true that we never stop growing old, and we mature faster than we'd like. but time is the essence of life, and it brings change and surprise. i like watching the people i care for get older, and change, and become who they're supposed to be. sometimes we all wish to go back, to repeat a moment, or pause it forever. but we need change, even when we don't want it. the cards are placed, and the time brings us closer to our destination. all the while as we travel through. the things we love doing, the people we share our life with, that's the destiny. we're not supposed to end up anywhere, we're supposed to make the best of this journey. = = everyone has the heartbreak that shapes them in a way that they could never go back to the innocence that they had before. -- Zooey Deschanel. = = relationships are never easy. some days, you're going to wake up and that love you know you have for the person in the bed next to you just isn't going to come so naturally. we always say "no one told us it was going to be this hard," but they do. we choose not to listen, because it seems so unreasonable that one day you will be able to keep your hands off of each other. one day you will spend your free time away from each other. the only way you can make a relationship last is if you work at it everyday and never give up on it. because if you take time to fight and argue and still can't imagine leaving them, then you love them. and that's the kind of love that's forever. = = there's something to be said about a glass half full, about knowing when to say when. i think it's a floating line, a barometer of need and desire. it's entirely up to the individual, and depends on what's being poured. sometimes all we want is a taste. other times, there is no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless, and all we want is more. = =
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